Thursday, December 4, 2008

A Letter to My #1

Dear Isabella,



I think it's time I tell you that Mommy's pregnant. I know I've told you, but I wanted to document it--all of my thoughts, feelings and what you are possibly thinking right now.



I know you've noticed a change in your Momma....and it breaks my heart a little bit. Momma used to be fun, silly, laughing all the time.



Now you come up behind me and give me the sweetest pats anytime I am getting sick....and that is the sweetest thing to me. Just knowing that you are trying everything to make your Momma feel better melts my heart into a million little pieces. You come and lay on me when I am laying down on the couch. That has to be one of the sweetest things you have ever done, munchkin.



I want you to know that you will always be my #1, my first born. Nothing, no baby, no person, can ever take that away from you, okay, honey? I know at first it's going to be hard. You may feel like you are replaced or that we no longer love you. But that is so far from the truth.



You and I have a special bond. You taught me how to love and care for someone more than I ever thought that I could. You taught me to appreciate the simple things--whether it's an airplane in the sky or you pointing at my eye when I ask you where my eye is (which I can't believe you can do! Smart girl!). Those are little things that as I've gotten older, I've forgotten about.



I love how you eat things and look at me and say "Mmmmmm" no matter what it is! I love how sweet you have been lately, you have no idea how much that is helping me during this first trimester. Thank you, sweetheart.



I do know something. You are going to be the best big sister in the world. You are going to protect, love and care for your little sister and brother and that is going to make Momma and Daddy so proud.



So, my #1, I love you. You are not being replaced, we are just adding another addition to our little family. A little person who will one day, someday, be your best friend ever.



Love always,

Momma



PS--Sorry, sweetheart, if this is too sappy. Momma has been a total emotional wreck lately....

20 comments:

The White House said...

That is precious. What a sweet little one. She will be a great big sister.

Jen E @ mommablogsalot said...

That is so sweet!

Kristy said...

Wow...that totally made me cry...I'm super emotional right now and I don't know why...but that was sooo sweet!

Krystyn said...

What a sweet letter.

And, you are right. She will be a great big sister.

Jennifer said...

Very sweet letter:)

Traci said...

Such a sweet letter. She's gonna love having that someday! :)

Elaine A. said...

Oh, how very sweet.

Hope you are feeling better soon.

Noob Mommy said...

What a lovely letter. I hope she'll read it someday and totally tear up like I just did! I guess I may be a tad emotional today too :) Ha!

amanda said...

emotional wreck = beauty :)

sweet letter friend!

Mistress Meeyee said...

You made me get misty eyed.Wait,now I am just crying.Thanks!!!!!!
That was beautiful,really. Now I am going to wake my baby from his nap and hug him.

Kristen said...

That is adorable!

It is so hard to think of how number two will ever fit in. But you will love them just as much as you do your first.

Congratulations again, and what a beautiful post!

Kelli @ writing the waves said...

So sweet! I know Isabella will LOVE being a big sister. And I hope you get to feeling better soon. I so remember that...

Diana said...

What a precious treasure... three actually, the letter, the precious number one... and the emotional Momma.

grandma g. said...

Chelle, what a sweet letter to your sweet little girl.
Yes, I'm choked up reading it too. I have seen and know how much you love that little sweetie and for any who don't know her, she is truly a sweet little doll baby! So pretty and so sweet. Our first great granddaughter. I have seen and watched how much you love her too!
Just hope the sick days don't last too long.
love you, grandma g.

Mother Hood said...

How sweet that your first born tries to comfort you when you're sick. My son (then 2 years old) would laugh and reenact my "all day sickness", by fake puking during one of my episodes.

Susan said...

That is so sweet and I am sure that Isabella is going to be a great big sister. I found that I worried much more about the transition for my #1 than I needed to. He did great and so will your number one!

Rach (Mommy Learns to Blog) said...

OK, you totally made me cry.
Bring on the sap - what a an absolutely beautiful letter to Bella! She's sure to cherish it (as you will) for so many years to come when she can appreciate your words.
Hang in there and I hope you start feeling better soon!

Jeni said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog! I hope your morning sickness gets better. Three things that really helped me this time: the Unisom, that you read about; a prescription antacid from my OB; and Slim-Fast. Sounds counter-intuitive, since it's a diet product, but I can usually drink a chocolate Slim-Fast when I can't bear to eat anything. It settles my stomach, plus it's loaded with vitamins.

I hope you feel better soon!

michelle said...

That is such a SWEET letter! She will be a fabulous big sister. My sweet mady has just done awesome and she had to deal with 2 at once. She will do great!

McMommy said...

Your letter is so sweet! It's so hard being pregnant and finding the energy to keep up with a little one....lots of love and good rest wishes to you, Momma!!