I think it's time I tell you that Mommy's pregnant. I know I've told you, but I wanted to document it--all of my thoughts, feelings and what you are possibly thinking right now.
I know you've noticed a change in your Momma....and it breaks my heart a little bit. Momma used to be fun, silly, laughing all the time.
Now you come up behind me and give me the sweetest pats anytime I am getting sick....and that is the sweetest thing to me. Just knowing that you are trying everything to make your Momma feel better melts my heart into a million little pieces. You come and lay on me when I am laying down on the couch. That has to be one of the sweetest things you have ever done, munchkin.
I want you to know that you will always be my #1, my first born. Nothing, no baby, no person, can ever take that away from you, okay, honey? I know at first it's going to be hard. You may feel like you are replaced or that we no longer love you. But that is so far from the truth.
You and I have a special bond. You taught me how to love and care for someone more than I ever thought that I could. You taught me to appreciate the simple things--whether it's an airplane in the sky or you pointing at my eye when I ask you where my eye is (which I can't believe you can do! Smart girl!). Those are little things that as I've gotten older, I've forgotten about.
I love how you eat things and look at me and say "Mmmmmm" no matter what it is! I love how sweet you have been lately, you have no idea how much that is helping me during this first trimester. Thank you, sweetheart.
I do know something. You are going to be the best big sister in the world. You are going to protect, love and care for your little sister and brother and that is going to make Momma and Daddy so proud.
So, my #1, I love you. You are not being replaced, we are just adding another addition to our little family. A little person who will one day, someday, be your best friend ever.
PS--Sorry, sweetheart, if this is too sappy. Momma has been a total emotional wreck lately....