Monday, January 12, 2009

Faith Over Fear

Tomorrow is the big day.

Our first ultrasound.

I am scared. Nervous.

And a crying wreck.

Since 2005's blighted ovum (my miscarriage), I don't think I'll ever go into a pregnancy carefree, happy, excited.

So many moments are filled with dread and being scared.

This will change once I feel the baby move, but the past couple of days have been hard.

Filled with fear, filled with tears and filled with Leo reassuring me that everything is, in fact, okay.

I've read so many heart breaking blogs on pregnancies where something horrible happened. The unimagineable, my biggest fear.

Please, God, please let everything be okay tomorrow.

Because we get to see our little one at 9:45 am. And the one thing I really, really want?

Is a healthy, strong baby with a little heartbeat that will fill our ears with happiness and relief.

So until we are there, I must remember my favorite quote.

Faith over fear.


Anonymous said...

Best thoughts for a strong perfect healthy heartbeat tomorrow!

amanda said...

it's a great quote honey. and very true.

thinking of you and sending you happy, healthy baby heartbeat thoughts!


Susan said...

I will be praying for you. I am sure that everything will be great.
I worried much more during my second pregnancy and just couldn't shake it. But, everything was fine and it was all needless, stressful worry.
Try to just leave it in God's hands and know that His plans are perfect.

Shannon said...

GOOD luck sweetie . . . lots of prayers for your little growing one!

Mrs. S said...

Oh Momma--it is such a scary thing. But I am sending love and prayers your way with the faith that the precious baby growing inside you will be healthy and strong :)

Kristy said...

I truly wish you the best and know what you mean on a personal first pregnancy ended too soon, so I know how hard it must be! I can remember when I heard my baby girls heartbeat for the first time...I cried I was so happy and relieved that my baby was okay! Big Hugs and lots of prayers headed your way!

Kristy aka Mommy in Pink

Vashey Fam said...

Oh sweetie, I'll pray for you tomorrow.

Summer said...

Good luck today! I can totally relate. I lost two pregnancies within about a month of each other (one miscarriage, one ectopic) so I know what it feels like to have the carefree joy of being pregnant taken away! I truly hope you see that healthy little baby, just swimming away! :)

anti-supermom said...

for all those horrible things that happens, a million times are awesome.

Hope the appointment went/is going great. My thoughts are with you.

The Mom said...

Saying a prayer for everything turning out wonderfully! Good luck!

Krystyn said...

I remember how scary it was/is.

Thinking of you guys! Try not to worry!

Elaine A. said...

I hope all went well Chelle. Prayers for a healthy pregnancy all the way through!