And I'm Outta Here...Randoms for the Road...

~I'm leaving on a jet plane tomorrow early in the a.m for Indiana...it's my first time away from both girls & under the circumstances I'm a little anxious right now {how happy am I that I went back to my old dosage of Effexor?!}. I can't wait to see my Dad at the airport and the rest of my family. I need them right now...

~Thank you SO much for your sweet words, prayers, thoughts. You have no idea how much it's meant to me in the past 23 hours. Have I told you how much I love you? I do--so, so much!

~Pretty sure I didn't sleep at all last nite. Tossed. Turned. Cried. Prayed. Talked to my Grandpa {do any of you do that? Talk to loved ones who have passed away?}. Then Bellie came to my room--and she tossed. And turned. *sigh* Hoping I sleep better tonite.

~I was at Kohl's for hours today trying to find outfits for the visitation and funeral. It was weird, but each time that I tried something on? I didn't feel like it was good enough for my Grandpa. Weird and stupid I know, but I just wanted the perfect outfits. Finally bought a couple of really pretty dresses...

~Tonite I was doing some photo editing of pictures with my Grandpa in them. I left Photoshop open while I was feeding Maddie--it had a picture of my Grandpa {Bellie called him Poppy} and she automatically came over and told me "Poppy! Mommy, it's Poppy. Poppy's sick, Mommy. Poppy sick." I tried my best to explain that Poppy wasn't sick anymore and that he is our angel in heaven watching over us now. She looked up at me and said "Feffen? Feffen, Mommy?". It took all I had to not start crying...instead I smiled and told her yes...Poppy? Is definitely in feffen.

~My amazing and super sweet friend brought us a homemade dinner tonite--she's amazing. I've hardly thought about food since everything has happened, so this? Was the sweetest and most caring act of kindness ever. She also brought over pasta and different sauces that would be easy for Leo to cook for him and the girls while I am away. Isn't she amazing?

~We had to turn our ac on tonite--it was 80 degrees in our house. At 8:30 at nite. With all of the windows and fans on. Insane, right? Barely into April and I was sweating like a....well, I was just hot.

~I'll be back on Saturday. I'll miss y'all--and can't wait to catch up once I return home. Thank you again for everything--I have the most amazing family and friends ever! <3

Holiday Hangover.

It's official.  I have a holiday hangover.

All year long From September-ish to Christmas Eve I am obsessed with the holidays.

First there is Labor Day.

Halloween.

Thanksgiving.

Christmas.

It's like all of my favorites are thrown into a few months--we have the bbq's, the candy, the food, the sweets, the shopping...

And then?

It's all over.  Done.  Finished.

Boo. Dislike. Suckage.

I can't believe it's all over?!

What the hell happened to the past four months of my life?  Seriously.

So, there you have it.  I'm hungover by the holidays.  And the fact that we drove for 16 hours yesterday.

Yeah, that will wipe any ounce of happiness you have left right off of your radar {for reals--all four of us have been dragging today}.

I know--I'm being such a mope, huh?  Do you go through this whole "holiday hangover" thing, too??

Three Little Words.

Swine.

Flu.

Sucks.

At least I have my laptop.

And a tv.

And a comfy bed.

And a husband off to take care of the house for me.

Here's a link of all things swine.

I know it's called H1N1--I just like saying swine flu...and to let y'all

know...I totally just typed wine flu on accident--ha!