Tuesday, April 6, 2010

And I'm Outta Here...Randoms for the Road...

~I'm leaving on a jet plane tomorrow early in the a.m for Indiana...it's my first time away from both girls & under the circumstances I'm a little anxious right now {how happy am I that I went back to my old dosage of Effexor?!}. I can't wait to see my Dad at the airport and the rest of my family. I need them right now...

~Thank you SO much for your sweet words, prayers, thoughts. You have no idea how much it's meant to me in the past 23 hours. Have I told you how much I love you? I do--so, so much!

~Pretty sure I didn't sleep at all last nite. Tossed. Turned. Cried. Prayed. Talked to my Grandpa {do any of you do that? Talk to loved ones who have passed away?}. Then Bellie came to my room--and she tossed. And turned. *sigh* Hoping I sleep better tonite.

~I was at Kohl's for hours today trying to find outfits for the visitation and funeral. It was weird, but each time that I tried something on? I didn't feel like it was good enough for my Grandpa. Weird and stupid I know, but I just wanted the perfect outfits. Finally bought a couple of really pretty dresses...

~Tonite I was doing some photo editing of pictures with my Grandpa in them. I left Photoshop open while I was feeding Maddie--it had a picture of my Grandpa {Bellie called him Poppy} and she automatically came over and told me "Poppy! Mommy, it's Poppy. Poppy's sick, Mommy. Poppy sick." I tried my best to explain that Poppy wasn't sick anymore and that he is our angel in heaven watching over us now. She looked up at me and said "Feffen? Feffen, Mommy?". It took all I had to not start crying...instead I smiled and told her yes...Poppy? Is definitely in feffen.

~My amazing and super sweet friend brought us a homemade dinner tonite--she's amazing. I've hardly thought about food since everything has happened, so this? Was the sweetest and most caring act of kindness ever. She also brought over pasta and different sauces that would be easy for Leo to cook for him and the girls while I am away. Isn't she amazing?

~We had to turn our ac on tonite--it was 80 degrees in our house. At 8:30 at nite. With all of the windows and fans on. Insane, right? Barely into April and I was sweating like a....well, I was just hot.

~I'll be back on Saturday. I'll miss y'all--and can't wait to catch up once I return home. Thank you again for everything--I have the most amazing family and friends ever! <3

36 comments:

Carrie said...

Have a great trip- I hope your family has a good reunion, even though it's for such a sad occasion. Praying for you all.

purseblogger said...

Love you Chelle! Have a safe trip and hang in there the next few days. He sounds like an amazing man. I lost my Grandmother last November and had to fly home for her funeral too. I can totally sympathize. It is a very rough time. But yes, I talk to her too, and to the others who have left us as well. I know they are angels watching over us, no doubt in my mind. <3 <3

casey aubut said...

Have a safe trip- and I hope you get all the comfort and support you need right now surrounded by your family!
Hugs!!

SupahMommy said...

Much love! Safe flight. xoxoxo we are all thinking of you .
xoxo
supah

Kmama said...

Safe travels, and lots of (HUGS).

The Mommyologist said...

I will be thinking of you and your family! It is so hard to lose a loved one. Sending you hugs!!

Jennifer said...

Thank you for being a follower for so long! I will miss you :(

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The Princess of Sarcasm said...

Have a safe trip and enjoy being with your family in this terrible time. I'm sure your grandfather would be happy to see you all together. Celebrate his life and your love for him. The Blogfia will be thinking and praying for you. *smooches™

Erin said...

Have a safe safe trip! We'll miss you!!

Jessica said...

Much love to you, Chelle! I admire your strength as a mommy during such a difficult time. Keep your chin up and remember to smile...you know he would have wanted you to!

Travel safe...

Homesick Cajun said...

Chelle I'm so sorry boo! I know there are no words that I can say that will comfort you right now but please know tha I'm thinking about you! I'll keep you and your family in my prayers! Hugs boo!

Nikki said...

Have a safe trip and I hope you find some peace in all of it. It's so hard loosing someone close to you.

Jenny said...

Hugs...Hugs...and lots more hugs sent your way. Hope you have a safe flight...soak up your family and only think of the best of times. love ya girl!

Heather said...

I talk to my gramma all the time. It's hard to believe she's been gone for over a year. But I know she still listens.

Hugs to you and yours.

Messy Mommy said...

Have a good trip. Take a deep breath and try to relax and enjoy your alone time as much as is possible in this situation.

I've been praying for you and your family. Loves!

Laura said...

Im so sorry about your grandpa. And yes, I talk to my relatives that have passed (but not out loud lol). Its comforting.

Have a safe trip.

Hugs

Lindsay said...

aww the heaven story was so sweet! I hoe the trip goes smoothly for evereyone! Your family will certainly be in my prayers!

Bombtastic Belle said...

I am so, so sorry for you and your families loss - I'll be thinking about y'all extra the next few days.

We 2 Bee's said...

Have a safe trip! So sorry for your loss, it's so difficult to lose such amazing people in our lives!

amanda said...

safe travels friend - and lots of love and hugs to your family...

Much More Than Mommy said...

That *is* a wonderful friend! Hope you have a safe trip! Love & Prayers!

Heather said...

Have a safe trip my friend {{hugs))

Midday Escapades said...

My thoughts are with you, Chelle. Safe travels.

Julie said...

Chelle - I am so sorry to hear about your grandfather! What a difficult time for you and your family. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. Safe travels!

Terra said...

all the positive I can spate heading your way - hang in there

Ali @ Mommie Life said...

Have a safe trip! Sending my love and lots of hugs! :)

Just Another Mom of 2 said...

Have a safe trip and may you find comfort with your family. I'm so sorry for your loss, it is never easy.

Hattie said...

So sorry for you family's lost. Y'all are in my prayers. Have a safe trip.

Krissy @ ArtsyMom said...

Aww!! I'm sorry about your grandpa. I felt the same way when I was looking for a dress for my grandparents funeral. I felt like my grandma would criticize what I was wearing, so I kept changing. It's just the way we find comfort, I think!

Working Mommy said...

It is always hard to be with family during such a sad time...try to make the most of it!

WM

Amanda said...

I hope that you are having a safe trip and are finding the closure that you need. You and your family have been in my prayers (((HUGS))) and I totally talk to people who have passed away ~ because I completely believe that they can hear me.

Sarah said...

Hang in there! Will be thinking any praying for your and your family. Have safe travels.

The Pipster said...

Hi Chelle, safe travels. When my grandfather passed away, I did not start to cry until I looked at his pictures...and then all the memories came flooding back. Thinking of you. -Pippi

Crazy Shenanigans said...

I just found your blog and it's super cute. I'm sorry you're going through this and having a rough time. I hope the time at home with family helps.

Honey B. said...

Have a safe trip, lots of prayers for you and your family! *hugs*