And My Tears Poured Out...He is Gone

Today has been the day at the top of my dread list for the past few weeks. Not only is it one of the worst days in our nation's history, but Leo left today. The irony of him leaving for a country that had a huge impact on why our military is doing what they're doing has been numbing to me. I just want to yell at the guilty that because of their hatred towards us, my husband is gone away from his family until next spring.

This morning my tears have been on overdrive...making our bed and smoothing down our covers and thinking of how long it will be until my husband will be lying next to me made me bawl.

Pulling out of our driveway and admiring all of the hard work that he did this week to our yard and tree made me lose it.

Driving to the airport  brought on a new flood of tears and caused more mascara to pour down my cheeks.

And the goodbyes. Oh, how the goodbyes sucked. The hurt in my heart, the emptiness that was left by my side where my husband should be...it's killing me inside.

For the next six months my blog will be chronicling our days, our lives, our happenings for my best friend...I hope that by seeing the girls and reading my words it will help us all get through these next few months.

And if I'm sappy, crying, making no sense? I apologize in advance--but hopefully each day that goes by will make me a little happier knowing that I have one less day without my honey. 

The One With Emotions and Christmas Decor

I'm not quite sure when it actually hit me that Leo is actually going away.

But sometime between bedtime and wake up time it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I've been a little mopey when the girls are asleep.

Sad while eating dinner.

And just having a pity party.

I am going to miss him. So, so, so much. Six months is a long time.

He'll miss Isabella's 3rd Birthday. Halloween. Thanksgiving. Christmas. New Years.

And every single day in between.

I love him with all of my heart. He's my best friend. He teases me. He sometimes can even make me pout.

I feel better after writing this all out.

Not a lot...but a little.

But can I tell you something?

I'm totally redecorating our bedroom and kitchen while he's gone. And Christmas?

Well, it's going to look like the Target aisles in here I'll have it so decorated.

I cannot wait to show Leo the pictures, ha!

Thanks for listening.