Sunday, January 17, 2010

Right Now.

Right now it's 11 pm. Leo just got home a little bit ago.

He's been at work since who knows what time.

I keep thinking he isn't going to go...I'm a dreamer, I don't always like to believe in the truth {which can sometimes be a horrible trait...believe me when I tell you this...}.

I've been so busy with the girls. And the house. And Leo's family is here.

So it's nice. Busy. Full house.

But I'm really afraid for when he leaves. Then they leave.

My house is going to be so quiet.

Silent.

With the exception of tantrums, screaming, crying, etc.

And hopefully a sprinkling of laughter, happiness, singing.

I have a lot planned for the girls and I. Parks. Bouncey place. Picnics. Sleepover in Mommy's room. Crafts.

I also have a ton of giveaways that will be written and posted. That will take up a lot of time.

I guess I'm just going back in my memory to when Leo was deployed to Iraq. I lost so much weight. I was so lonely. So sad. So depressed. I'm so thankful I have Bella and Maddie now. They will be my reason to get up each and every day.

To laugh.

To love.

To be happy.

Right now.

Mind racing a million ways.

Heart is aching.

Plans are being made.

Happiness will continue.

I will be a better Mommy just knowing I have support from so many amazing family friends...

xoxo

16 comments:

Mia said...

Wow, Chelle! Please tell your husband thank you for me ;-) What an awesome sacrifice he is making for his country. You sound ready and prepared for the wait. I can't even imagine how hard it will be. But, at least you have your girls for support and smiles! xoxo

Lin said...

I wish him a safe trip & quick return to you & your family. I bet it cant be easy to have him leave your side but what he's doing is great. I hope it gets easier for you.

Nicolasa said...

Thinking of you and your girls. As time goes on you'll get in a groove and he'll be home before you know it.

The Mommyologist said...

I will be thinking of you while he is away...just know that your bloggy friends are here!!

blueviolet said...

It's going to be fine, it just is!

Heidi@TheCraftMonkey said...

Chelle, your family is in my prayers, and as cheesey as it sounds, we will be here for you while Leo is away. Hugs, friend!

Lindsay said...

(((HUGS))) You are one strong mama! The girls will have a great time! I am sure you will miss Leo a ton.. but you do have the girls to keep you company and remind you of him!

Chrissy MacCEO said...

Sending lots of {[HUGS]} your way! Sounds like you need them. We will all be here for you, too. And those cuties of yours will certainly pull you through it!

Llama said...

My heart just breaks for you. I swear I wish nothing more than a safe journey for him. He is an amazing person to do something like that and you are so lucky to have someone like that in your life. Please stay strong for him, your kids and yourself. I wish nothing but the best of everything for you and your family. Lot's and lot's of hugs xo

Julie said...

Oh Chelle... I am crying for you! Growing up in a military family, I have been through deployments and know how hard they are. Just know that I am thinking of you and keeping you and Leo and the girls in my thoughts and prayers. I might not be there where you are, but I am supporting you from hundred of miles away :)

Amy said...

yeah...

Midday Escapades said...

Oh, my sweet Chelle, I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it better. You will be in my thoughts and please don't hesitate to reach out if you need me.

{{{HUGS}}} {{{KISSES}}}

Pres. Kathy said...

Chelle, my prayers are with your husband and your family. God will get you through this time. Just be there for your kids. Sending lots of hugs!

amanda said...

i am so proud of you friend. so proud.

extra hugs and happy thoughts coming your way...

Loukia said...

Chelle, you're so strong. I feel your worry and pain about having an 'empty' house - being alone all day and night with your kids, it won't be the easiest thing in the world, but you'll rock it, I know it. Your 2 little darling girls are your life, and you'll have so much fun and make their daddy proud - and when he gets back the HUGS!!!! Stay happy and positive - your husband is a hero, you're a fabulous mom and your girls have great parents! And of course we'll be here for you to complain on the days when you're so tired, and filled with anxiety. We're here for you!

Chrisy Bates said...

Just stopping by for a blog visit (SITSa)...many thanks to you and your family, husband for all that you do...stay happy and positive!