Thursday, September 18, 2008

Cancer. Just. Go. Away.

My Grandpa saw the doctors today.

My eyes have been a non-stop tearfest since.

I.can't.stop.crying.

I am going from devastated. To pissed off at cancer and why cancer even exists. To in shock.

And the cycle keeps.repeating.itself.

My heart is torn to pieces.

It's breaking from the pain.

To imagine what my poor Grandpa is going through.

And my poor Dad.

Cancer has not been kind to a lot of people I know.

And I just want it.to.go.away.

Here is an excerpt from my mom's e-mail to us tonight:

"Anyway, as we suspected it is not good news. They said it's Stage 4, small cell cancer that has spread to the lymph nodes around his pancreas (I didn't even know we had lymph nodes there) and it's also in his bones.Without chemo, they would expect him to live only 2-4 months. With chemo, they really don't know because they don't know how the cancer will react. They're starting treatments tomorrow (Friday). "

So, as you read this, could you spare a prayer?

Please? For my Grandpa? For my Dad?

Because we really need them.

I cannot stop crying. I am sitting here with the tears falling down my face.

I love you, Grandpa. And I am here praying my hardest for you.

And Dad? I am praying for you, too.

Thank you for the prayers.

And sorry this post was all over the place.

(((Hugs)))

26 comments:

Susan said...

Oh Chelle...I'm so sorry to hear this. I am crying just reading it and thinking about how hard this situation must be for your family.
I am praying for all of you!!!

Big ((*HUGS*))

american mum said...

I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you.

Simply Shannon said...

I'm so sorry that you got such devastating news. You are in my thoughts.

Kristen said...

You and your family are in my prayers. So sorry to hear about this Chelle.

Hugs!!

Jen E said...

I don't really have any advice nor any experience with this but I just wanted to comment a ::hug:: to you. You'll be in my thoughts.

gina said...

I am so sorry- cancer is such a horrible thing! Prayers for your Grandpa, your dad, you, YOUR WHOLE FAMILY!! And some hugs.

Vashey Fam said...

I am so sorry Chelle. I wish I could help with this. I prayed yesterday and I'll keep praying.

Amanda @ notsoextraordinary said...

ohh I'm so sorry sweetie... i know how hard it is... i've lost 2 of my grandparents to cancer, i will keep you all in my prayers...

amanda said...

sending love, hugs and more prayers to all of you :)

Becks said...

I Chelle I can feel your pain! Life sucks sometimes. Cancer is evil and I hate it!! It touches so many lives! To give you some hope my dad survived cancer and is cancer free for 3 years. He had it all over around his kidney the size of a grapefruit! In his thyroid and in his tescticle. He was not likely to survive and HE DID AND IS SO HEALTHY!! The Power of prayer works and I will be praying for your family and your grandpa!! God is good!

jOni lAnE said...

chell, i'm so sorry...you are in my prayers and i'm sending good thoughts and hugs your way.

Jenny said...

Chelle..Praying lots for you and sending healthy, good vibes to your grandpa. You are totally right, cancer sucks! I wish it never existed!
My thoughts are sent to you and your family.

The Nice One said...

Oh Chelle, I am so sorry.

Lots of good healthy vibes and prayers headed to your Grandpa. Lots of "thinking of you" vibes and prayers to you and yours.

Mandy said...

I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my prayers.

Kelli @ "Writing" the Waves said...

Oh, Chelle. I'm so sorry. How awful. I hope the treatments are successful and not too hard on your grandpa. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. Sending big hugs your way.

Heather @ A Boy, A Girl, A Pug said...

I want to call you.

I want to hug you.

I would say I want to kiss you, but that's a little much. But you know what, if you need a big ole' smooch will be more then happy to give you one:)

Cancer sucks ASS! I hate cancer. It's stupid.

I hope you know that I am here.

I have been through it, am still going through it, and I know how you are feeling. I know that your grandpa doesn't know me, but please tell him that we are all thinking of him and praying for him constantly.

I am so sorry sweetie.

Angelique said...

(((Chelle))) I'm so very sorry. I'll be praying for God to grant your family some peace, and for complete healing.

Shannon said...

Oh no, I am so, so sorry, Chelle. I'll say a prayer for him, and for your whole family.

Krystyn said...

Oh Celle, I'm praying for your grandpa and dad. That is just awful. I hope the treatment works very well.

The White House said...

I am so sorry to hear about this. I am praying in FAITH that the Lord would radically heal your grandpa and that the treatments would be very effective and easy on his body. I am praying for you, too, that you would have peace and rest knowing that God is able to do immeasurably more than we could ever imagine.

Lisa said...

oh man....how horrible. really, really horrible. prayers going out to you & your family.

Leslie said...

Oh sweetie, I am so so sorry. I hate cancer. I too wish it would go away. Never to be heard from again. My family has lost 3 members to cancer. I'm so sorry for the pain you are in. Just know that you are not alone. I will keep your family in my prayers. (((hugs)))

Susan said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandpa. Your family is in my prayers!!!

Mamasphere said...

I'm so sorry.

Of course I can spare a prayer. For your dad, you, your mom, the whole family. Every day.

Clare said...

i am so sorry chelle! this is just so sad and hard. i will be thinking of you and praying for your whole family! cancer is tough on everyone involved:(

Wendi said...

Oh Chelle,
I am so sorry.
I will certainly be praying for you and your family.
((hugs))