I Thought You Were Gone.

Last Tuesday evening (Isabella's 5th birthday) I had a scare.

The worst pregnancy scare a momma could have.

I was rushed to the ER where the doctor told me my hcg levels were very low.

Where they told me this could be the beginning of a miscarriage.

My heart and earth shattered. I cried. I sobbed. I tucked myself into a dark hole.

Another miscarriage? Why?

I got my hcg levels checked on Friday. A little over 48 hours since my last draw.

I waited patiently, knowing that the results would be not what I prayed for.

I answered the phone on the first ring.

The doctor asked me how I was doing. I told her okay. Just okay.

She surprised me.

"Your levels have more than doubled since the ER visit."

What? How is this possible?

She explained to me that some women bleed in pregnancy. No explanations, they just did.

I had my ultrasound yesterday.

5 weeks 4 days.

Still pregnant.

Gestational sac? Check. Yolk sac? Check.

I am still pregnant. Very, very scared. But very, very pregnant.

The One Where I Started Seeing Double...

Ummm...there are no words right now...

Totally speechless.

 

 

Although, in reality, I shouldn't be.

But I am...

Almost...

I'm almost done being pregnant.

I'm almost a momma to {2} little girls--my little princesses.

I'm almost about to love {2} little girls more than I ever thought I could love anyone or anything.

I'm almost about to start all over again with a newborn.

I'm almost ready to tackle the next chapter of this thing we call life.

I'm almost ready to meet my little gymnast who has graced me with kicks, tumbles and rolling around.

I'm almost ready to go through labor and the miracle of your own child being born.

I'm almost ready....

Almost.

Few Baby Shower Pics

Needless to Say...We're Shocked!

Yesterday at Wal-Mart I decided to pick up a pack of cheap-o pregnancy tests. Remember my slight obsession?

After Isabella and I unpacked all of our bags, I remembered I had bought a 3 pack.

All three of them turned positive.

Due to my obsession I immediately wanted Leo to go get more.

He firmly told me no, I am in fact PREGNANT!

We are so surprised, happy and shocked!

Isabella's going to be a big sister!

**This is not my test above. My new lens has yet to arrive so I had to find one on the web**