Friday, August 1, 2008

Love, Your Guardian Angel

My darling little sister,

You do not know me, little sister, but I know you. I am your guardian angel.

You see, little sis, Momma and Daddy wanted you for so long. Oh, so long.

I know Momma has explained to you that I am in heaven watching over you and you know what?

I really love you.

I left to be in heaven because God needed me. He needed me up here to be with you at all times, to protect you when you are sick and to watch over you when you are sleeping.

Momma and Daddy wanted you for two years. I was in heaven waiting for those two long years. When I went to heaven Momma cried so hard. Daddy wiped her tears away.

I gave her hugs and kisses. I heard her tell me she loved me even though we never met face to face.

After seeing how hurt Momma was I talked to God. I told him my family needed an earth angel.

Each month Momma grew sadder and sadder. She started losing faith. She couldn't understand why I was in heaven and why there wasn't a child in her arms.

I then spoke to her one night while she was sleeping. I whispered in her ear you were on your way. When she awoke she thought she had dreamed about me giving her the message; that it wasn't real.

But it was real. I was right there by her side.

When Momma found out you were coming I was right there by her side holding onto her. I was with her when she read about you in baby books, I was with her when she found out you were a girl, I was with both of you as you entered into the world.

Momma wanted you so bad and I knew this was the best gift that she could be given. She needed you. She was ready to wipe someone else's tears and give them big hugs when they were sad.

So my little sister on your ten month birthday, I have a message for you.

I love you. I love you for being my sister. I love you for making Momma not cry anymore.

Happy 10 month birthday, Isabella. You are one very loved and wanted little girl.

Love always,
Your Guardian Angel


jOni lAnE said...

Oh. My. Gosh. That touched my heart more than you can imagine. Thank you for sharing that. Regaining my composure now.

Krystyn said...

That was perfect! I got goose bumps reading it! Thanks for sharing.

Jennifer said...

Wow, Thank's for sharing!

Jill and Rick said...

Mema's crying now. I love you, hon, and I thank the Lord for blessing us all will our beautiful Isabella. 10 months old today! Smooches for Bella from us today.

Kelli said...

Tears are rolling down my cheeks... I have a handful of friends who have experienced miscarriage within the past year or so. It's been heartbreaking. How comforting it must be to know your "earth angel" is being watched over by her angelic big sister. Beautiful post.

Anonymous said...

Oh so beautiful! Happy Ten Months Little sister!

Mamasphere said...

Oh, Chelle, that was beautiful. I'm so glad your dream came true.

Rach (Mommy Learns to Blog) said...

Wow. My first trip over here, and you have me crying. What a beautiful tribute to your angel and Isabella (who is absolutely gorgeous BTW!). I can't imagine that it was easy for you to write that - thank you for sharing with the rest of us.

Now I've got ANOTHER blog to add to my reader - one post and I'm hooked!

Tenakim said...

This is lovely- sorry for your loss! It's nice to meet you.

Lisa@verybusymomwith4 said...

That was so sweet. Your little girl is very lucky to have her own beautiful guardian angel!

Sgt and Mrs Hub said...

Oh Chelle... this was incredible. My heart aches for your loss. It is amazing how you are turning something desperately sad into beauty.

Happy 10 months, Bella!


amanda said...

oh honey.

long distance hugs.

and happy bday wishes to your sweet little love.

Elaine A. said...

That post was just gorgeous. What a wonderful way to remember, for all of you...

Leslie said...

Chelle that was absolutely beautiful. I can relate to that more than you know.....

Wendi said...

Thanks for sharing.